Yesterday I fired the new gas kiln at the college. We were all expecting the fire to be efficient and much quicker. Ya.... didn't happen. It did really well up to cone 6, and then stopped! It just hung there teasing me! At 8:30pm (we started it at 8:45am) I gave up and called a instructor who knows much more than me. She came up and we were able to get the cone 9s to drop (we needed to drop the cone 10) at 11:30 PM!! Another anti-climatic disappointment.
So what you ask. God has been talking about my feelings and emotions. They aren't bad. It's what we do with them that are bad. Some were in Deuteronomy God told the Israelites that they had "dwelled at this mountain enough". I definitely make mountains out of my feelings. I let my feelings affect my life, and the people around me in a bad way.
So I guess I will have to go back to the tried and true truth. God loves me. He has the best plans for me, and if I let him he will put them into effect. I am His precious beloved. The coolest thing is that truth is beginning to be easier to move beyond choosing and to believing/living.
